in my reflections on life - and in the midst of a minor mid life crisis - i have begun to itch for academia... i find myself searching for journals who are seeking submission, programs who take on part time students who can work at their own pace and certificates i can attain. i have looked through more course catalogues in the past two weeks, than in my five years at school; i have emailed more professors, contacted more schools, and looked through more educational tracks, than i have in my life. i can confidently, for the first time in my life, use the word yearning - i am YEARNING for education.
so... being in a client service role for an insurance company - not exactly my idea of where i want to be... where does this lead me.
we start to question our every actions: am i making the right decision? am i selling out? am i forgetting where i came from? where will i be in 5 years? how will i know when to move on?
that questioning takes a toll on a persons confidence - not only in themselves, but in everything they think they knew...
then i remind myself - i could be george bush. i could be leading an entire country to their demise, whilst single handedly shifting a nation's paradigm back to racism.
i could be selling myself out - i could be working in africa, on a project i don't believe is any more important than running the same one on a reserve up north, but the glam from the ID stance is a lot more fun.
i could be a failure - i could have stopped at that point in high school when things were too much.
'I am working for the time when unqualified blacks, browns, and women join the unqualified men in running our government.'
so... being in a client service role for an insurance company - not exactly my idea of where i want to be... where does this lead me.
we start to question our every actions: am i making the right decision? am i selling out? am i forgetting where i came from? where will i be in 5 years? how will i know when to move on?
that questioning takes a toll on a persons confidence - not only in themselves, but in everything they think they knew...
i'm at a loss.
life throws things at you. you duck, dodge, etc. i think i've managed to be hit square in the jaw.then i remind myself - i could be george bush. i could be leading an entire country to their demise, whilst single handedly shifting a nation's paradigm back to racism.
i could be selling myself out - i could be working in africa, on a project i don't believe is any more important than running the same one on a reserve up north, but the glam from the ID stance is a lot more fun.
i could be a failure - i could have stopped at that point in high school when things were too much.
so instead, i progress
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'Conquerors, colonizers, despots and democratically elected governments alike have tried to impose a [……] way of life on the people under their rule. In some places nonfavoured cultures have been labelled “inferior”or “backward". we can not be proud any more’.
Human Development Report (UNDP, 2004)
'I am working for the time when unqualified blacks, browns, and women join the unqualified men in running our government.'
Cissy Farenthold