though i spent a large part of the weekend sick... blah... it was full.
friday: i headed straight from work to elizabeth's place where i was spending the night. she has been so supportive of me this week, and set up a bed, with one of her little stuffed animals to sleep with me. i am so lucky to have amazing friends.
when i arrived at her place, we ventured out to licks, and indulged in our vices - since we're both vegan, licks is a special treat. vegan hamburgers, pop, and fries with vegan gravy. this does NOT happen very often. from there, we visited IKEA, where elizabeth needed things for her new place. in the spirit of a fresh start, i also got a new duvet cover, and some pillow covers, etc.
i then took elizabeth on her first Joe visit - since i am in love with joe, she figured it was only appropriate. needless to say, i overspent. a bathing suit, a dress, a skirt, a pair of shoes, a makeup holder, and some breast cancer nail polish later... *sigh. my bank account hates me. we went back home to elizabeth's place and unpacked (in the RAIN!) and she put together her IKEA goodies, while i painted my nails. showered. relaxed. talked. laughed. i have a wonderful friend in elizabeth. (check out joe's new blog!!)
saturday: woke up fairly early, as elizabeth's sister and aunt were coming in to meet her. packed up, and headed out with my life in bags. went to pick up my jacket and some other stuff left over from moving, and then met up with denver to check out yet another place. exhausting. it was nice, but too small and/or too expensive. grabbed starbucks. then met up with emma at her place. i've been crashing at emma's for a lot of nights... her and her roommates (aka. her boyfriend and 1 friend) have been SO welcoming and understanding. those poor guys have seen more of me than i am sure they have ever cared to see. i owe them all one HUGE thank you when all is said and done. since it was her roommates birthday that night, we were prepped to go on a boat cruise on the toronto harbour. unfort, because of the horrendous weather this weekend, the boat was cancelled. nevertheless, emma and i headed out to the eaton's centre to go shopping. 2 hours, lots of money, and 2 bad moods later, we were back at her place to eat, relax and nap before we went out. got dressed - university style (2 girls, one bathroom, lots of music) - and went to some friends for a little pre-drink. lots of drinks, laughs, etc. later, and we headed to the bar.
side note: the unfortunate thing about laurier (and laurier's subsequent extension to toronto) - is that everyone knows everyone. needless to say, i was surrounded by people who knew people, who knew people. *le sigh. life is but an endless array of relationships - i just need to learn how to maintain at least one properly.
tattoo rock parlour is a blast - we had a fun night - some dancing, a little interaction with a big bouncer, and one $18 turned $50 cab ride later (i don't want to talk about it), we 'settled' in for the night.
sunday: woke up with contacts still in eyes - the WORST! - and still in my bar clothes. ugh. got at least another hour sleep before meeting up with my parents to go to my grandmas. spent the day sick - and mother's day was one big sick fest. i must say - a grandmother's house is the best place to nap. solid 3 hours. amazing. i have not slept well all week, and i needed it - mentally, physically, emotionally. spent mother's day with grandma and parents, and sister. went back to my parents with just enough time to repack my week long bag for work, and then hop on the GO train with literally a minute to spare. got back to emma's place, and spent a breif yet sweet moment with alicia (emma and alicia being my former roommates from university), and then stayed up with emma and her roommates reliving the night before. i felt less bad about my bail at the bar, when i found out the birthday boy had sprained his ankle. went to bed late... and couldn't fall asleep until later. my mind is racing, and it doesn't seem to be getting much better.
as another aside: my parents are darling - i know they're worried about me, and everytime i see them, they ask "are you sure you don't want to stay here?", but it's tough with them living the distance that they do. the morning commute would be awful - and i want to try to get as much sleep as possible. it would be nice to be with them, but it's also hard to be around them.
why is it so tough to be around the people you love when you're going through things with them? maybe it's a reminder of reality? maybe a reminder of what could have been? either way... it's hard to look at them, because i find myself staring into sadness and loss. i know that will get better... but until then, i just hug them, and we remind ourselves that it will be ok.