poetry

john the poet


I met a man named John yesterday.
He was a poet. And an artist. And an activist.
I was sitting on the patio at a fast food restaurant, writing. He asked me if he could sit down, he wanted to enjoy the sun, and share my table as it was the only spot free - I said ‘yes’. I noticed his shirt, and his beard – flecked with colour. Both of them. One due to age, and one with paint.
He shared with me that he had just moved into the area – he had been living for six months in a motel in china town. Horrible, he said. No way for anyone to live. Now, because his best friend had become pregnant and moved in with her daughter’s father (different rooms, though), he was able to live in her old apartment.
He asked me if he could share some of his poetry with me. I said yes, and accepted the piece of paper he pulled out from his well worn backpack. It had been folded twice, into four perfect sections.
He blinked rapidly. Two or three times for every one of my own. It made him appear as though he was concentrating twice as hard as I was. Maybe he was.
His white dress shirt had been altered. Sleeves removed. He wore it with only 4 buttons done up. I noticed the paint on it, only after he began to show me the collages he had worked on. Pulled from his backpack one after another. Christy Turlington, Hilary Swank, kittens, and mountain men grinning ear to ear were his main focal points in his art. Always with the background filled in. Always with his signature somewhere in the space between magazine cuttings. Always with the date. He spelt December like he was French – ‘decembre’. I didn’t ask him why.
He showed me a photo of his friend with her daughter – 6 hours after the daughter way born. He told me she was born on February 1st – groundhog day. I speculated that groundhog day may be on the 2nd. He looked at me, and after a split second responded with, ‘I like to think she was born on groundhog day’.
We high fived 6 times. He offered me some of his fries. He said since I was new in town, if I ever wanted a friend to have coffee with, I should email him. He smiled frequently, and with generosity.
When I packed up to leave, he shook my hand. His last words were, ‘I’ll see you around the neighborhood – to new friends’.
I took his poetry home, and read every word as soon as I sat down.

he sit in olden wheelchair glaring at 1930’s spviet presidium and joe stalin.
Retired now from the flow of life and flux of writing from wonder-muses,
Knows he’s been relegated to third string propagandist/writer/poet/seer

Still, he’s got that lava molten lava in those ancient experienced eyes
And that huge moustache a la Nietzsche, plus that volcanic mind
In effect, he is telling stalin and hitler and Mussolini and their cronies

To go to whatever kind of political/social hell…
In a cheap novella!!!
John Alan Douglas March 2013. 

'you spend your days waiting for time to make you wise | you lie to yourself about anything you want'

i've been reading a lot of 'thought catalog' lately, and to be honest, submitted a few pieces - not that i expect them to go up, but it's a good starting point. nevertheless, i've been so inspired by many of the writers on the site... some funny, some much smarter than me, some poigniant, and some just plain truthful. a few writers in particular made me laugh, cry (ok... mist), think, and nod. most importantly....
gaby dunn wrote this piece on the bystander effect, and reminded me of things i hadn't thought about in a while... invigorated a love in me for sociology... and showed me it was possible integrate my love for narrative story telling with my love for the fascinating side of humanity.
tessa schoenrock shared a scientific inventory of my purse - and let me tell you: we are the same person. amazing. she made me laugh out loud - and usually only i do that to myself. she made me fall in like, with her writing on things that most people know, but no one wants to say out loud... like being pretty can sometimes suck, which i'm sure garnered more than a few negative comments. but hell - is all so true.
and - the reason for my writing... bart schaneman made me first think about when i was 17. then i read his blog. and combed through entry after entry after entry... his language is outstanding... and pure truth. i can only dream of finding the words to no less than perfectly describe those moments of silent feeling, and recalled anguish.
so many of his pieces - poetry, stories, essays - meant so many things to me. maybe it was because we have experienced similar emotions, thoughts, experiences. maybe it was because he speaks to the still moments in time that few of us ever really reflect on. whatever it is, he does it best. the best i've ever seen. and so much of his writing said things to me.
but this. this, is pure perfection. this is exactly what means something. this is... life.
'I left my jacket on the chair but I can’t go back to her.

We stay in Portland and the rain.
We send messages with the subject line: New York City.
We get caught wishing someone had told us what we were in for.

The women you knew don’t care enough now to save you.

You spend your days waiting for time to make you wise.
You lie to yourself about anything you want.
You tell yourself people improve with age.

Take the risks that are available.

We look at our feet all day.
We concede what’s been done.
We let our troubles keep us scared.

Stay in touch if you can stomach the messages about new relationships.
Be happy for each other if you like pain in your moving on.
Pledge not to write about people and break your promise.

On the same day the unrequited love writes you
with news of the love of your life’s new boyfriend
you get a message from a girl who doesn’t speak English.

There are so many ways to say hey.

A lover that may or may not be sends you one word
in the middle of the night:
cherries.

To tell you what
I did when I was with you
would only widen the wound.

What could you say to make me stay in Korea when New York is waiting.

The nearest we come to traveling
is dreaming ourselves into
places we’ve never been.

They’re not parting shots when you’re already gone.'