what i've been reading lately

what with being unemployed and all, i find myself with time in the day. and i often fill the time with the gym. since my back feels better than it has in a year (WAHOO!) i've been able to amp up my exercise schedule (tee hee - life without a chiropractor telling me what i shouldn't be doing), to... *GASP.... walking on the treadmill! i know. crazy. with all that being said, i hate the gym. i always have. i always will. i hate the idea of sitting inside, on a machine, 'working out'. but, i learned quickly when i hurt myself that i either use stationary equipment, or i don't sweat at all. so, i succumb to the pressure of the indoor gym world.
to pass the time, i find myself reading. nearly 3 books a week. so one of the first things i did when i arrived and we had a place in vancouver, was pick up a library card. needless to say, i've been like a kid in a candy store. i've been whipping through some goodies lately... i'd say some that may even qualify as some of my favourite books of all time now.
here's what i've been reading lately.
1. the cure for death by lightening - a story about a young girl in a small farming community in BC during the war. it's filled with somewhat magical stories, and filled with spirituality, partially due to a heavy presence of native friends and the reserve just down the road from the family. to be entirely honest, this novel was infuriating. the characters are hate-able (i'm allowed to make up my own words here), the lead character included - even being a young girl. i felt frustrated the entire time i was reading it... though, i suppose that's what makes a novel good. pulls you in, and keeps you wrapped up in it, regardless of how you feel about it.
2. room - i finished this book in a day. seriously. i could not stop reading it. written from the perspective of a 5 year old, who you come to learn has been born in a room where him and his 'ma' are being held captive. it's heartbreaking, and compassionate - it was so engulfing i felt like i needed to look up every case of a child or person being held captive, and make sure they're ok now. it's hard to read, as it's disturbing, but having it written from a child's perspective helps with that - seems to break the harshness down a bit into more easily swallowed bits.
3. eleanor rigby - i'll be up front in admitting i'm not a huge douglas copeland fan. but, the cover won me over. ha! i admit it - i choose wine from the label, and books from their cover. and honestly? it was good. a story about a woman named liz who is pure loneliness. it's humorous in ways, but mostly a wonderful and painful reflection on loneliness, spirituality, and gaining a life. also, props to copeland for delving a bit into the workings of a corporate environment that further encourages the loneliness that we all feel when we're surrounded by people.
4. farenheit 451 - everyone knows i love dystopian novels. all of them. any of them. so it's hard to believe that i hadn't ever read this one before. it's a story about a future society where most books are outlawed, and there is a strong push towards constant activity, noise and action to keep people's mind's busy, in order to prevent them from thinking. the main character is a firefighter - who, in this society, burns houses where these banned books are found, instead of putting fires out. it was a tough read, and yet - as most dystopian novels tend to be - it was so unintentionally true. it focuses on censorship, book burning and banning, and suppression of ideas... and even the moments in which the main character tries to have conversations with his wife, and she is too busy with the people in the tv to respond or even pay attention. yikes. definitely worth the read if only for the warning.
5. half-blood blues - a story that takes place in two times (1939 and1989), about jazz music during WWII (yeaaa... there's been a lot of that lately). this was another one that took me a long time to get through - not because it wasn't a great book (because it was), but because it was tough to read with the language that was used. written in the style of language that was true to the black population in germany during the war, it was one that i wanted to read every paragraph twice to make sure i was really getting it. it's an unbelievable story of friendship and loyalty. i was disappointed when it ended, which i think is a good sign.
6. maus 1 & 2 - a story written by art spiegelman, narrated by his father - vladek - about his survival tale of WWII and the holocaust. it's ability to share the survival story amongst stories of modern day visits, arguments, and bits of reality. there's something about graphic novels that have been drawing me in recently, and this has to be one of the ones you read, if you will delve into the world of graphic novels. it's heartbreaking, and so worth it.
what have you been reading lately?

cookies. and chickpeas.

it's hilarious that people seem to like me cooking. hilarious.
but, since i'm now - what i like to refer to as - a mix between martha stewart and kanye west (i only listen to rap when i cook. it's my thing), guess i should probably share EVERYTHING I COOK EVER (note: not to worry. i cook MAYBE once every 2 weeks. example: today i ate a slice of tofu microwaved with honey garlic sauce, some sprouts, some hummus, and hot sauce. gourmet. i know).
i'll admit, i wanted to share this one mostly because it's one of the only things i ever cooked that got compliments. and YES the people eating them HAD been drinking all day. and YES they were all biased because i was sitting in the room, staring at them while they ate, greedy for approval. but nevertheless, i remember the words 'these are AMAZING' coming out of someone's mouth. so, take that.
the inspiration to make these came from this post. when i stumbled onto this beauty... chickpeas? in cookies?? i can pretend cookies are health food? duh. no contest.
so when i finally ended up reunited with my food processor, and managed to slip some cookie ingredients into the weekly grocery shop, i had a mission. make chickpeas into believable cookies.
for something like cookies (i don't DO cookies) i had to admit, i was nervous. i have a tendency to burn, scorch, misjudge size, water down, and do all sorts of bizarre things to baked goods. i think the only successful thing i've ever managed in the baking form, were some tomato rosemary scones i made for a bake sale once.... and i am fairly certain that was a result of the absence of sugar from the end product. so this one - baked goods (cookies, no less), involving chickpeas - was daunting. but. there was the tempting prospect of something i could pass off as healthy, that involved chocolate. so, here i was - faced with chocolate, peanut butter and chickpeas. and nowhere to go but forward. 
so, start slow - preheat the oven. 350°F / 175°C. easy enough. then - since all i had was a vegan chocolate bar - i smashed up my chocolate bar. either with a hammer, or in the food processor. i'm sure there is some sort of special trick to this, but... pff. i just slammed a few chunks into the food processor, and hit 'pulse' until they resembled similar sizes and shapes to chocolate chips. i also have a habit of assembling all of my ingredients so they're all in one place while i get started. i've been known to start a recipe, and end up without one of the essential ingredients, so this is my way of making sure i'm not an idiot, and actually HAVE all the stuff i need. 
then, chickpeas. i make my own chickpeas in a slow cooker, but this recipe specifically said canned chickpeas, so that's where i went. luckily i had a can sitting in the cupboard that i knew i'd never use for anything else. i opened, drained, and rinsed, then i let them sit on a towel to dry out a bit. am i the only one who is completely and utterly disgusted by the gooey liquid that beans are packed in?? *shudder. i tend to rinse any canned beans an excessive amount - probably don't need to run them under water 8 times. 
once the chickpeas were dried looking, i threw everything (except chocolate) into the food processor - chickpeas, peanut butter, honey, vanilla, baking powder and a pinch of salt... maybe a bit more than that - i like my sweet things with a bit of salt too. process the bejesus out of it all - open the processor a few times to scrape down the sides, make sure all the chunky chickpeas are all smooth. i only had chunky peanut butter, so i ended up with some chunks in my cookies - i didn't mind them. if you want smooth cookies, go smooth peanut butter (seems like rocket science, right? ask me how long it took for me to realize why my cookies wouldn't go smooth. i don't want to talk about it). blend blend until as smooth as possible. 
THEN. the chocolate. i'm lazy. i don't want to stir chocolate. anything i can do in a food processor, i'll do it. are you like me? sweet. throw them bits of chcolate into the slow processor, and 'pulse'. a few times. apparently you're not supposed to over 'pulse'. not sure why... because i food processed my chocolate, i had teensy chocolate bits spread all through my cookies, and it was delightful.
it was super thick. borderline, i was worried that my processor may break. so anticipate that. that means you're ready. wet your hands (this is vital), get out your baking sheet (i don't have a baking sheet yet), and start scooping. i'm sure those fancy pants bakers out there have an ice cream scoop for uniform size and shape cookies, but i use the old 'this looks about right' method. ancient. passed down from generation to generation. really fancy. the recipe calls for 1 1/2" balls, but since we're all human, and a) like big cookies, and b) can't eye out 1 1/2" balls, i just went for a size that would fit onto my pan. they won't flatten, so i pressed mine down a bit to make them flatter.
then, bake.
and ohhhhhhh how your kitchen will smell like heaven alive. peanut butter and chocolate. i promise you there is no trace of chickpea anywhere. if i weren't constantly reminding of the chickpeas, and how HEALTHY my cookies were going to be, i'd just be a kid, sitting in front of the oven, waiting for cookies to be done.
since my cookies were bigger (probably more like 2" or 2 1/2") i think i spent 20 minutes baking. and even still, they needed time to sit and harden up... and even then, they were still a bit gooey. hey - i love me a gooey cookie. just be prepared. when these came out, they were heaven. i ate 4. and then remembered i was probably od'ing on chickpeas. they are odd - you definitely can't pass them off as normal cookies - but they are delicious. i even used them as workout snacks - HEALTH FOOD, remember??
and yes. i use dollaram kitchen tools. and yes. in absence of a baking sheet (i moved across the COUNTRY people.... priorities!!) i use my pyrex for every baking need.
here's the recipe below. i'll definitely make these again. i may even try to freeze, and then bake again to warm up... see what happens.
ingredients
1 1/4 cups canned chickpeas
2 teaspoons vanilla extract
1/2 cup + 2 tablespoons natural peanut butter or almond butter (do NOT use regular peanut butter... it will be too oily. must be natural)
              if your peanut butter is salt free (mine was), you will also add a pinch of salt
1/4 cup honey (you can also use agave and maple syrup instead)
1 teaspoon baking powder (if you need yours to be grain free, you can use 1 part cream of tartar/1 part baking soda/2 parts arrowroot)
1/2 cup of chocolate chips 
directions:
1. Preheat your oven to 350°F / 175°C. combine all the ingredients, except for the chocolate chips, in a food processor and process until very smooth. Make sure to scrape the sides and the top to get the little chunks of chickpeas and process again until they're combined.
2. Put in the chocolate chips and stir it if you can, or pulse it once or twice. The mixture will be very thick and sticky.
3. With wet hands, form into 1½" balls. Place onto a Silpat or a piece of parchment paper. If you want them to look more like normal cookies, press down slightly on the balls. They don't do much rising. Bake for about 10 minutes.

my weekend in summary

this weekend was filled with the outdoors - which is probably appropriate since i'm in vancouver - the most beautiful place on earth (according to the BC sign when you enter the province) - and i start work on monday, so won't have time off every single day.
the cliff looking up about 1/8th up the hike... i had no idea what i was in for; the 3rd peak of the hike in squamish - probably mostly half worried i was going to fall off the edge, and half in shock i even made it to the top; saturday morning breakfast and a book; finally - some art on the walls; the flea market - a perfect last sunday before work; a walk in the park on sunday afternoon; the water was warmer than the air; beaches with grass AND mountains. this is literally heaven

this weekend had: friday night sushi dates with way too much food; casual hangouts with seinfeld and other long lost sitcoms for late night friday drinks at home; an early morning saturday - with a good breakfast of steel cut oats, honey, cinnamon, and a good book that i just finished reading (and tea - ALWAYS tea); a road trip to squamish; a long, exhausting, fairly technical, and overwhelmingly beautiful hike up the chief - to second and third peak (first peak will have to come another day); a long decline after the hike; a grocery shop (boring); some (veggies) burgers and beer to celebrate after spending the day hiking; an evening in with dinner and comfy clothes; a sunday of exploring vancouver; chat with my dad - during which he bragged about the 30+ degree weather at home; flea marketing; wandering around Main street; realizing i didn't get a may transit pass, and then walking home; vietnamese subs in my hood; a walk to the beach; reading and sightseeing at the beach near my house (not bold enough for a bathing suit yet - but my dress still afforded some tan lines!); learning that vancouver closes lots of things on sundays; stir fry dinner; and getting ready for my first week of work training.
hope everyone had a GREAT weekend - and enjoyed the sun!

on contributing to this earth

"he was part of us, and when he died, all the actions stopped dead and there was no one to do them just the way he did. he was an individual. he was an important man. i've never gotten over his death. often i think what wonderful carvings never came to birth because he died. how many jokes are missing from the world, and how many homing pigeons untouched by his hands. he shaped the world. he did things to the world. the world was bankrupted of ten million fine actions the night he passed on"
fahrenheit 451

things i'm in love with

this week was - dare i say - hectic. again. how is it possible to be technically unemployed, and still be crazy out of your mind busy?? good question. i manage. it's been a great week. it's been rainy all week, and since i have - what is fondly referred to in my close friend circles as - 'dead fish hair' i LOVE humidity in the air. my hair is lovin' all over the body it currently has (don't get use to it, hair). despite what seems to be the rest of the city of vancouver's complaints, i'm loving every second of it (man, these vancouvrites LOVE to complain about rain - what IS that??). 

a few things i'm in love with this week.... 
"too many people have addiction to superficial things and not enough conviction for substantial things like justice, truth and love" (cornel west)

this series on tumblr, called 'the last book i loved'. a series of essays about... you guessed it... the last book that a variety of authors loved. every type of book you can imagine, and author's reviews, reflections, what caused them to pick the book up in the first place, what they were wearing when they read it... you get the idea.

the ever entertaining david lynch - one of my all time faves - posting on vine. now THIS is what vine is for, friends!

this necklace, heart in a bottle, by oliver jeffers, for digby and iona. well. not just this necklace. anything that oliver jeffers does, ever. but, then, this necklace.
and finally, this video from beatrice eli. girl crush. and a great video to boot.
happy friday everyone - have a great weekend!