'tryna to figure out what to get those who got it all'

my dear friend jhye has a new song.... and hey, it's the holidays. so listen to some Christmas songs people.

i hate Christmas music. i know. scrooge-like. but it's repetitive, and not my style. i don't care who covers it, or what tempo it takes (though - i DO challenge you to give me some rap/hip hop Christmas songs, because i will likely enjoy them the most). this? a story related to Christmas? with an incredible beat? love.

“This moment will just be another story someday”

............because today, this is especially relevant. because right now, in the life i am living, this has come to fruition. and because soon, things will need to change.


“it's much easier to not know things sometimes. things change and friends leave. and life doesn't stop for anybody. i wanted to laugh. or maybe get mad. or maybe shrug at how strange everybody was, especially me. i think the idea is that every person has to live for his or her own life and than make the choice to share it with other people. maybe that is what makes people "participate.” you can't just sit there and put everybody's lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love. you just can't. you have to do things. i'm going to do what i want to do. i'm going to be who i really am. and i'm going to figure out what that is. and we could all sit around and wonder and feel bad about each other and blame a lot of people for what they did or didn't do or what they didn't know. i don't know. i guess there could always be someone to blame. it's just different. maybe it's good to put things in perspective, but sometimes, i think that the only perspective is to really be there. because it's okay to feel things. i was really there. and that was enough to make me feel infinite. i feel infinite.” 
― stephen chboskythe perks of being a wallflower


i just watched this movie recently. and it's wonderful and beautiful. and it means a lot right now. i recommend it.

my weekend in summary

this weekend was mostly parties, and relaxation fests. i balanced the parties with relaxation (literally - i'm talking all day in bed-ness), and relaxation with more parties.
(ha! barely any photos = meh)
beading mayhem in my household (trying to keep colours separate); homemade dog treats for friends canine family members; writing a bajillion holiday cards to send in the mail; work parties after party; the way my bedroom looked all day saturday - my dresser filled with jewelry, and wonderful candle holders from alex.
friday:  friday was a short work day, and then off to our office's year-end party - where there was food, drinks (drinks a PLENTY), and some crying girls (all in a day's work). after the party, we headed out to houstons, where a few of us hung out for some more small bites to eat, and some drinks, while reviewing all that happened within the past 6 hours (give alcohol to 9-5'ers before 5pm, and things get crazy). then our crowd dwindled further, and 3 of us headed over to scotland yard for a last drink, to meet up with a colleague's friends. after we decided it was time to go home, i walked him back to his hotel, and then stopped in quickly at the office, before heading home. the benefit of a year-end party that begins at 1pm, is you are home, in bed, having eaten, and watched an episode of 'the league', then fast asleep, before midnight.
saturday: didn't get a good sleep, and so decided to spend my day in bed. no shame here. within my day i watched looper, bachelorette, the league, and i spent the day finishing some beading that i have been doing contract for a friend. i left only to shower, eat, pack, and then finally when i emerged from my bed to pick up my baby sister from the airport - hurrah! home for the holidays. we chatted the whole way home, and then stopped in to see my parents quickly. they were between parties (they had 3 parties saturday night - it's not an exaggeration to say they lead a far more exciting social life than i do), and stopped in to say hi, before leaving for party #2. baby sister and i headed out to our family friend's place, where they have an annual cookie exchange, gift exchange, ugly Christmas sweater and general debacherous party night. met up with jeff, and some other friends (as their son and daughter are friends as well), and spent the time there eating, catching up, having some (non-alcoholic) drinks, and trying to procure tom jones cds. then, everyone piled into my car and after drop off duty, i think i was asleep within 4 minutes of my head hitting the pillow.
sunday: woke up late, after almost 12 hours of (much needed) sleep. spent the day watching some six feet under, having a quick snack, and then jeff and i headed back to the party location to pick up his car. we stopped off for a very romantic date of food court lunch first, before then grabbing his car, and heading back to his parent's place. we sat in and watched an episode and a half of 'human planet' (these things get me so excited), and then we were out for his family's annual festive special night. we all ate at swiss chalet, and then saw life of pi (3D) as a family - such a nice holiday tradition. we all piled back into the car, and headed home, and after a bit of a decompress, went to sleep after a late night.
hope everyone had a great weekend - it's the last before my holiday craziness begins, so i'm counting down the work days!

weekend of parties

this weekend is filled with holiday celebrations... my work party today, another party with family friends tomorrow, and then jeff's family celebration (since i can't make any other date closer to Christmas) on Sunday afternoon.
sometimes there are things that make us sad - various things. things that build up, and cause you to lose sleep, and things that compound into bigger things. things like loss, death, anger, sadness. and today, a lot of those things have become a bit too much. so it's a good time for all of this.
so! to champagne, and glitter, and dancing shoes, and fun with friends.

happy weekend everyone!